I was born into a single-family home on long island new york in 1978. I always was rebellious and it didn’t take long for me to disobey what my parents wanted me to do. As long as I can remember I never felt like I fit in which led me down a path of drug use and partying to try to fit in. I always had anger, anxiety and depression issues throughout my youth and teenage years and so my parents made me go to counseling in hope to calm me down. I ran away from home often even to the point where my mother was going to get a person in need of supervision put on me from the local precinct. I always seemed to tiptoe down that fine line of disaster and I ended up in the end surviving my teenage years. I got kicked out of high school just before graduating 12th grade for fighting.  I lived on long island working in various trade jobs up until 32 years old until I decided to join the United States Navy and I left for bootcamp in 2010. After getting out of the Navy and moving on with my life which included a wife and kids I felt like life was good. Some years later my wife decided to leave me and take the kids and left me in an empty house surrounded by nothing but memories. After a long court battle for joint custody of my daughter I finally felt some peace again in my life. I learned so much during this time about how to be strong when you didn’t know how to be. I ended up bankrupt and losing my house after she left.  I had several awakening experiences over the years but this was the straw that broke the camels back. My entire identity was gone it seemed like a hurricane had blown through my mind. I had no idea who I was or which way was up. After surviving my insanity and crying it out to the depths of my soul I emerged a brand new person even though the voices in my head were the same and the only difference was I no longer believed in them. My old self was destroyed and I had major synchronicities by an unseen power that would communicate with me through reoccurring numbers and signs. I felt compelled to write a book about the wisdom that was gained from these experiences and which ultimately led me to discover my purpose here on planet earth which is to be a guide for those who are struggling with their identities, emotions, and thoughts.